Tuesday, March 30, 2010
My husband; My everything
Still adjusting to life at home especially this week because hubby went back to work so it's just me and the kiddo's. I do feel much better than I did last week and I'm not "cocooning" anymore I'm ok with seeing people now although I really enjoyed our family week together last week it was so great to ignore the phone and e-mails and outside life and to just be together as a family...I wish life could always be so simple. I really think this birth brought my husband and I much closer as well.(although before Jameson was born I would have never believed that we could become any closer than we were)
I didn't mention this in the last post but Jameson had to stay in the hospital for 6 days because when he was born he had fluid in his lungs which developed into phenomena so they had to put him on antibiotics for 7 days but he was able to just get away with six days because he was doing so well. He was transferred to a different hospital when he was 1 day old. We decided that I would leave early from the hospital that we birthed at so I could room-in at the other hospital. That was a very hard week for both my husband and me because we only saw each other for a total of maybe two hours. He had to stay home with the kids because they weren't allowed to go to the hospital due to flu season regulations that were still in effect so no kids were allowed. You know that saying absence makes the heart grow fonder well we put that to the test and I fully agree you don't know how much you miss your spouse until he's gone...and it's the little things you miss the most like sleeping together at night or the talks we have at the end of the day, or the kisses given at random times of the day, or snuggling by the fire after the kids have gone to bed. I would cry every time after he left the hospital... I think that's why I really cherished our time together last week because it was really hard for me emotionally to be without my husband he really is my everything and without him I felt so alone at the hospital. I was very grateful that I was able to stay with Jameson it was so very important to me because I wanted to establish that great breastfeeding bond that starts right away, and I truly believe that babies know when you are with them, and we had lots of bonding time together. I got to know all the nurses and it was great because they let me do everything...(I also learned which nurses I DIDN'T like....mostly the young ones....I felt like they were on a power trip and I got the vibe that they felt I was stepping on their toes...especially this one nurse!! I told her I was going to my room to get some sleep before Jameson's next feeding and I would set my phone alarm for three hours to come back to feed Jameson and if he was hungry before then to please call my cell number I would come to feed him I was only right around the corner...well when I returned she told me to come back in an hour or so because she had given him a bottle of my breast milk about a half hour before I arrived because he was getting hungry...I was shocked that she completely disregarded my instructions...I ended up staying with Jameson for the rest of the night until her shift was over. But for the most part the nurses were very helpful plus I'm sure they liked it too because they didn't have to do anything except give Jameson his antibiotics every 12 hours. I was so happy when our day come to bring Jameson home..we all were so happy. My six year old son even got emotional and started to get teary eyed when we told him Jameson coming home. He said "Mommy I'm so happy I have water in my eyes...I can't wait to see him."
My little lovebugs snuggling together..
Daddy and Jameson bonding at the hospital...
Daddy and Jameson bonding at home...
I gave this poem to my husband for his first father's day and it touched him so much that he had a beautiful tattoo made up on this arm...God really must have added a little something special when he made my husband a father because he is everything to our children as well...
What Makes a Dad
God took the strength of a mountain,
The majesty of a tree,
The warmth of a summer sun,
The calm of a quiet sea,
The generous soul of nature,
The comforting arm of night,
The wisdom of the ages,
The power of the eagle's flight,
The joy of a morning in spring,
The faith of a mustard seed,
The patience of eternity,
The depth of a family need,
Then God combined these qualities,
When there was nothing more to add,
He knew His masterpiece was complete,
He called it ... Dad